• Ignorant of what forces formed the final vector,
• accepting that I may never know what all led to here
• but deciding that I know enough.



Thracean ink, extant in the motion; goal as both map and medium.

Bolded parts are reminders of what I've learned and earned from being an outsider, freed from external expectations. I've learned to appreciate my strengths, and to draw strength from uncertainty.

See inventory for stuff that really aligns my values

• A
  • Arch (to be the draw itself, drawing in itself, muscles taut, pen flush to paper - no more, no less)
  • Awe
  • Adventure (and its key traits: found above and below)
  • Awareness
  • Appreciation
  • Acceleration
  • Aggressiveness
  • Astuteness
• B
  • Bravery
  • Bugs and birdsong (hear them, as I hear my wants and fears, without a stymie in my step)
  • Baroque musicians, unbothered by societally imposed myths of musicianship
• C
  • Compassion
  • Concentration, as with the candle flame
  • Can't fail, will succeed
  • Courage
  • Confidence (Hamming, observed by Hamming, Zhang, Tersoff, )
  • Childlike wonder (Wiles, observed by Rota, Ulam, )
  • Competence
  • Competitiveness
  • Consilience/generalizability (Grothendieck, )
• D
  • Dignity
  • Disdain (Crick, Grothendieck, Ulam (saying mathematicians take themselves too seriously), Royen)
• E
  • Even though -- self-esteem; setbacks; nevertheless.
  • Engage. I choose to engage.
  • "Enclaves of order against entropy"
  • Enthusiasm (Shannon, Fisz)
  • Efficacy
  • Energy
  • Exile

• F
  • Fearlessness (Tersoff, Ulam)
  • Fact, the counter to fearful "counterfactuals"
  • Fairness
  • Freedom
• G
  • Granular, not general (in terms of process, feedback) think Napoleon's attention to circumstance, Carmack's focus, and both's emphasis on preparedness and flexibility
  • Gratitude
  • Grind (embrace the--)
• H
  • Heat
  • Hope
  • Humor ()
  • Hatred (for dogma, "advice", and naysayers)
• I
  • Industry
  • Internal locus of control
• J
  • Judicious
  • Joyful

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Playgrounds:

Graphics programming (webGPU, discrete diff geo), audio processing (sinusoid functions, convolution, Fourier transforms), clay (fluid mechanics), music theory (geometry), dance and contact (nonholonomic, biomech)

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All of the above unlocked accessed after Analysis+LA